Our memories will last a lifetime and our 
enormous love for Ross forever. 
Our hearts are truly broken, by the unbearable pain, the emptiness and the massive void we are left with, His loss has crippled our souls. Our hearts are deeply and mortally wounded for life. We are devastated by the loss of Ross and our lives will never be the same without him. When we lost him, we lost a very special part of our family, he was the world to us and there are no words to ease the pain!. Ross you are missed every minute of every day. You never get over losing a child, time does so little except continually remind us each day, how much we have lost. The pain does not subside as time passes and we cannot escape it. The bond of love can never be broken. We are not ready or prepared to say goodbye! We will never understand how life can be so cruel. There are so many things about him that no one will ever know. But, we want people to know how much joy he brought to our lives and how special he was to us and will be forever. My darling Son we are so privileged to have had you in our lives  and you will live in our hearts foreverxx

This memorial website was created in the memory of
our loved one, Ross Tavendale also known as DJ Destiny, who was born in United Kingdom on March 27th 1983 and passed away on May 16th 2005 at the age of 22 after recieving his long awaited heart transplant. Remember the good times & they will last forever x x x
Please light a candle for Ross & add your own memories & tributes.
TEAM ROSS is now up & running in memory of Ross. Please support us by joining the organ donor register TODAY.
www.teamross.co.uk

 Remembrance is a golden chain
Death tries to break, all in vain,
To have, to love, and then to part
Is the greatest sorrow of the heart.

I stood by your bed last night; I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying you found it hard to sleep.
I whispered to you softly as you brushed away a tear,
"It's me, I haven't left you, I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."
I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea,
You were thinking of the many times, your hands reached out to me.
I was with you at the shops today; your arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels; I wish I could do more.
I walked with you towards the house, as you fumbled for your key.
I gently put my hand on you; I smiled and said, "It's me."
You looked so very tired, and sank into a chair.
I tried so hard to let you know, that I was standing there.
It's possible for me, to be so near you everyday.
To say to you with certainty, "I never went away."
You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew...
in the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you.
The day is over... I smile and watch you yawning
and say "good-night, God bless, I'll see you in the morning."
And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide,
I'll rush across to greet you and we'll stand, side by side.
I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you to
see. Be patient, live your journey out...then come home to be
with me.

Within our hearts we always keep
A special place for you,
And try to do our best to live
As you would want us to.
As we loved you, so we miss you,
In our memory you are near;
Loved, remembered, longed for always
With the passing of each year. 
 

We think of you, dear Ross,
And our hearts are filled with pain.
This world would be a heaven
Could we hear your voice again.
Years have swiftly passed,
But still we don't forget,
For in the hearts that loved you best,
Your memory lingers yet.

Time speeds on, five years have passed
Since death its gloom, its shadow cast
Within our home, where all seemed bright,
And took from us a shining light.
We miss that light, and ever will
His vacant place there is none can fill
Down here we mourn, but not in vain,
For up in Heaven we will meet again

 He has solved it, life's wonderful problem,
The deepest, the strangest, the last,
And into the school of the angels
With the answer forever has passed.
How strange he should sleep so profoundly,
So young, so unworn by the strife,
While beside him, brimful of hope's nectar,
Untouched, stood the goblet of life.
God knew all about it; how noble,
How gentle he was, and how brave;
How bright his possible future,
Yet put him to sleep in his grave.
God knew all about those who loved him
How bitter the trial must be;
And right through it all, God is loving,
And knows so much better than we

I LIGHT THIS CANDLE

I light this candle in memory of you,
My life, my child, my heart,
May it shine bright and true,
As you did from the start.
In it's flickering flame I see,
The life we shared together,
The love and wonderful memories
That I'll carry with me forever.
I light this candle in memory of you,
I look up to the Heavens where you are,
I see the lights of Heaven shining bright too,
But your candle shines brighter than the usual star.
My child you are still so much a part of me,
Even though you are no longer here,
You live on in my heart where you will always be,
No matter what, I will always keep you there.
On this special night, I light this candle for you,
And I hope every one who sees it will know, and will 
Remember you with me when they see it's golden  glow

 I stood by your bed last night; I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying you found it hard to sleep.
I whispered to you softly as you brushed away a tear,
"It's me, I haven't left you, I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."
I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea,
You were thinking of the many times, your hands reached out to me.
I was with you at the shops today; your arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels; I wish I could do more.
I was with you at my grave today; you tend it with such care.
I want to re-assure you, that I'm not lying there.
I walked with you towards the house, as you fumbled for your key.
I gently put my hand on you; I smiled and said, "It's me."
You looked so very tired, and sank into a chair.
I tried so hard to let you know, that I was standing there.
It's possible for me, to be so near you everyday.
To say to you with certainty, "I never went away."
You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew...
in the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you.
The day is over... I smile and watch you yawning
and say "good-night, God bless, I'll see you in the morning."
And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide,
I'll rush across to greet you and we'll stand, side by side.
I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you to
see. Be patient, live your journey out...then come home to be
with me.

No matter how much Faith we have ,
we lose people. But we never forget
them. And sometimes its those memories
that give us the strength to go on....

Your time here was shorter
Than we'd wanted it to be,
And every moment you've been
gone, There's emptiness in me.
We thought we'd have a lifetime
That we could share with you.
We hoped & wished for many
things That now will not come
true. But no matter what may
come our way We'll always have
one wish: To tell you, now &
evermore How much you're
loved & missed

The truest words of all: I will not forget you.
You are in my waking thoughts,
my sweetest memories, my dearest dreams.
I will not forget you.
You have touched my soul, opened my eyes,
changed my very experience of the universe.
I will not forget you.
I see you in the flowers, the sunset,
the sweep of the horizon
and all things that stretch to infinity.
I will not forget you.
I have carved you on the palm of my hand.
I carry you with me forever 

 

Memories
He danced through our lives,
Leaving traces of his smile
and his sparkling eyes
everywhere...
His laughter
echoes through our thoughts and dreams
everywhere...
Some times we reach out to hug
And to touch a memory.
Our love for Him is neverending,
But has been placed in a
special part of our hearts 
 

AS I LIE IN BED TONIGHT,DEAR LORD,
I HOPE YOU HEAR THESE PRAYERS OF MINE.
FOR I'VE ASKED FOR YOUR HELP SO MUCH,
AND FELT FORSAKEN EVERY TIME.
I ASKED YOU FOR THE STRENGTH
TO HELP ME MAKE IT THROUGH EACH DAY...
I ASKED YOU TO KINDLY GUIDE ME
AS I TREAD UPON MY WAY.
I ASKED YOU FOR YOUR MERCY
FOR CALLING MY CHILD BACK HOME WITH YOU...
NONE OF THESE THINGS I'VE ASKED FOR
IS MORE THAN YOU CAN DO.
FOR I KNOW THAT YOU CAN DO ANYTHING,
YOU ONCE MADE THE BLIND TO SEE.
SO WILL YOU, DEAR LORD,
PLEASE DO THESE THINGS FOR ME?
I NEVER MEANT TO EVER TAKE
A SINGLE DAY YOU GAVE FOR GRANTED,
THE SEED YOU SOWED INSIDE OF ME
IS NOW FOREVER PLANTED.
FOR YOU SENT TO ME AN ANGEL,
PLANTED ON THIS EARTH TO BLOOM WITH YOU.
I THANK YOU, LORD FOR ALLOWING ME
TO SOMEHOW MAKE IT THROUGH.
ALL THE TIMES I THOUGHT YOU HAD FORSAKEN ME,
YOU WERE REALLY WITH ME ALL THE TIME...
IT WAS ME WHO SLIPPED AWAY
FROM YOU SEEKING PEACE OF MIND.
NOW I KNOW THAT NOTHING HAS,
OR NOR WILL IT EVER BE,
POSSIBLE WITHOUT YOU BY MY SIDE
FOR I NEED YOU HERE WITH ME.
I THANK YOU LORD ONCE AGAIN FOR A LOVE
LIKE NO OTHER...
YOU SENT TO ME AN ANGEL
AND PROUDLY CALLED ME HIS MOTHER!

No I can’t send a card again this year
Or give a gift so fine,
So I’ll just send a special prayer
To that wonderful Son of mine

.

I'LL NEVER BE THE SAME

Confusion reigns within my heart
Within my soul
Because I know I cannot ever be
The woman I once was.

How can I be complete and whole
When part of me is gone....
A special part...a precious part
The part that was my son.

Conceived in love how gratefully
You were born to me...filled with pride
A bit of my heart, a bit of my soul
Went with you when you died.

One cannot lose a child to death
And still remain the same,
Untouched by tears of emptiness,
Undaunted by the pain.

The cruelest nightmares come to pass
Life's bitterest pill to swallow
In light of this, I can endure
All else that's yet to follow.

There's nothing that can fill
the empty spaces that remain
I've tried and failed so many times
I cannot try again.

No trying to regain the past
That's all a bitter sham
It's time that I resign myself
To being who I am

To be the woman I've become
(No acting out a part).....
A mother with a shattered dream
And a broken heart.

 Remembrance is a golden chain
Death tries to break, all in vain,
To have, to love, and then to part
Is the greatest sorrow of the heart.



God knows how much we miss him,
Never shall his memory fade;
Loving thoughts shall ever wander,
To the spot where he is laid.



Time may wipe out many things,
But this it wipes out never -
The memory of those happy days
When we were all together



Just thinking of the thoughtful things,
That you have said and done,
And loving you a little more,
Dear son, for each and every one.

Sometimes I sense a little flutter.
Like a shadow swiftly slipping by.
Or I hear a silent, gentle murmur.
Like a soft whisper from out the sky.

Sometimes... I hear you call my name,
Or clearly see your face before me.
And I feel that you are with me still.

Then peacefully... I come to know
As I am thinking happy thoughts of you
You, my son, are thinking of me too.
Loving memories fill my aching heart.
As dreaming dreams of what could be.
Or might have been, if you were here.

My Angel Son

Theres an angel on my shoulder

and I know it must be you

A whisper in my ear from..

a voice I always knew.

Sometimes a gentle breeze, where

it never should have been.

You let me know your with me,

From a place where time begins.

A touch when no ones there.

a flicker in my eye.

A rainbow where a storm has been,

in the, and your heart goes on in me,

from a place I cannot see.

Some may think I'm crazy, some

may not believe,

but I can feel your spirit,

I know you'll never leave.

Your wings wrap me in warmth,

your halo shows me light,

Your whispers keep me safe,

In the middle of the night.

It really does not matter

That no one else can see,

Just like in the days before,

It was always you and me.

The light in our lives is missing

A voice from our hearts is still,

A place inour hearts is empty,

That nothing will ever fill,

Many tears have fallen and many

more still flow,

For what it meant to lose you ,

no one will ever know

You gave us many gifts in life,

Some big and others small

But to have you for our Son was

The greatest gift of all

In my heart you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child you left too soon,
Tho it may be true that we are apart
You will live forever in my heart.

God knows I want to hold you
See you, touch you
And maybe there's a heaven,
And someday I will, again
Please know you'll never be forgotten
Until then.

 




We walked together you and I
AMother and her Son,
We had hopes and dreams for tomorrow
But tomorrow didn't come




We walked together you and IWe talked, we we laughed we loved
We shared so many happy times
And for that I thank the Lord above.





We walked together you and IBut only for a short time
For all too soon it ended
Leaving pieces of broken hearts behind.



And even though I miss you,
More than words can ever say,
I thank God I got to walk with you
Every precious moment of everyday...




In my dreams you are alive and well,Precious child precious child,
In my mind, I see you clear as a bell,
Precious child precious child
n my soul there is a hole
That can never be filled,
But in my heart there's hope,
Cos you are with me still!




In my heart you live on
Always there NEVER gone
Precious child you left too soon,
Tho it may be true we're apart
You will liver forever... in my heart.




In my plans I was first to leave ,
Precious child precious child
But I was left to grieve
Precious child, my precious child.




you,In my soul, there is a hole,
That never can be filled
But in my heart theres hope
And you are with me still!!



Hug From Heaven
When you feel a gentle breeze
Caress you when you sigh,
It's a hug sent from heaven,
From our loved one way up high.

If a soft and tender raindrop,
Lands upon your nose
It's just a little angel's kiss
As fragile as a Rose.

When you hear a song that fills
With a feeling of sweet love,
It's a hug sent down from heaven
From someone special that we love.

So let your heart be joyful,
If you're lonley my dear friend
Hugs that are sent from heaven,
A broken heart will mend.




Oh today I light a candle for you,
The seasons come and go and...
I'm weary from the change
I keep on moving but...
You know it's not the same.




Do you hear me sing the songsWe used to sing?
You filled my life with wonder
Touched me with surprise.
I hold on to the life and love we knew,
Because that love will never die.





Forever we will miss you,
Forever we will cry,
Why did you have to leave this earth?
And gain your wings to fly.




You know we loved you dearly,More than anyone could know,
Why did you have to leave so son,
Why did you have to go?




Our hearts down here are broken,
And it can never mend
Forever we protected you 
Until the very end.

 


We pray to God for answers,
We talk to him everyday,
We hope you can hear us Lord
As on our knees we pray.




Take good care of our child up there,
He was so much wanted here,
Wrap your arms around him please,
And tell him that we care.



Let him know we love him
And will forevermore,
Keep him protected safe and warm,
All wrapped in love so pure



So deep are our memories
So precious they stay
No passing of time
Can take them away















 


If I could catch a rainbow, I would do it, just for you,
And, share with you, its beauty, on the days you're feeling blue.
If I could, I would build a mountain, you could call your very own.
A place to find serenity, a place just to be alone.

If I could, I would take your troubles, and toss them into the sea.
But, all these things, I'm finding, are impossible for me.

I cannot build a mountain, or catch a rainbow fair;
but, let me be, what I know best,
A Son, who's always there.

I promise to defend you, should the occasion ever rise,
And, I promise to wipe away the tears,
which might stream from your weeping eyes.

Let me be the trusted Son, the one that you know best.
I will never leave you, on that, you can surely rest 

Those we love don't go away
They walk beside us every day
Unseen unheard but always near
Still loved still missed, so very dear







Silent memories keep you near
As time unfolds another year
Out of our lives you might have gone
But in our hearts you still live on






Wishing today as we wished before
That God could have spared you
many more
In our hearts  your memory is kept
To love, to cherish and to never forget!






 
 
 





  

  

  

 

 
  



 

 
One night I cried to Jesus

As I sat beneath the tree.

I looked into the open sky

And hoped He'd answer me.



I'm lost dear Lord

I've travelled far but still I seem to roam.

Please light the way and lead me, Lord

I need to go back home.



I told Him of my burdens

And of the sadness in my heart.

That from His gracious love

I'd never felt so far apart.



Why did you take my child, Lord?

I cannot understand.

No longer can I touch his face

Or hold his hand.



I'm angry, Lord, I'm missing him

I'm drowning in my sorrow.

Please help to heal my yesterday

And face each new tomorrow.



It was then I heard his gentle voice

And felt his presence near.

How I wanted so to hold him

As I cried another tear.



he said.. Mum, I'm an angel now

My spirit will be free.

I'm an angel now in heaven

So please don't cry for me.



I was chosen by our Lord above

And now I'm in His care.

Whenever you need me

Just look inside your heart

I promise to be there.



No one can ever take away

Our bond with one another.

For I'll always be your child

As you will always be my mother.



So if you cannot find your way

Or the road to home seems far.

Just look up to the Heavens

And I'll be your guiding star.



he said, Mummy, I'm an angel now

My spirit will be free.

I'm an angel now in Heaven

There's no need to cry for me